Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Seahawks Sundays for Jen

Every year I BEG my husband to get NFL sunday ticket so that I can watch the Seahawks.  Every year his response is the same.  NO WAY I am not paying all that money just you can watch your beloved foodball team.  Well of course with the season on its way and about to start the conversation has made its way back into my house and this year he came to a comprimise.  He said that if I can raise or come up with half of the money he will let me get it.  SOOOOO here I am a stay at home mom and devoted Seahawks fan trying to raise my funds to watch the games....



  • I'm raising money for a serious (to me) cause. Because I live on the east coast I don't get to watch the Seahawks games. I am have to raise half the money for NFL ticket in order for Derek to get it for me. I already have the first $10.00 towards it I've got $90.00 to go who can help me.... #onedesperateseahawksfan 

     
     
     
     
     

    DEVOTED!
     

Monday, June 25, 2012

Just a thought


So easily the body of christ gets snarled in Satans traps.  I have been thinking so much about what it is that causes a person to stumble so strongly that they throw caution to wind and forsake all that they believed in, stood for, proclaimed, and made covenants to.  I've watched marriages come under attack so frequently and most often the marriage crumbles to a place of unreconsiliation.  Its so heart breaking to me.  The most import vow that we will ever make aside from salvation is the "til' death do us part" vow.

Do people  even know what that means or do they just  say it and not ACUTALLY mean it?   Marriage is suposed to  be the closest display of Christs love to his church.   But when people take so lightly their vows and covenants to each other how could the Church REALLY understand Christs love for us.

I think the biggest crisis in marriage is the trap of not talking or being able to talk about our struggles.
James 5:16 Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.
 Isn't it just like Satan to put us in a position where we do exactly the opposite of scripture. We feel the need to cover up our hurts and our struggles rather then going to trusted pastors, leaders, friends, family.... we come up with a dozen of excuses as to why we cannot share our struggles.  And then as a result of that we seperate ourselves from other believes as to "protect" ourselves but in the end it does the  complete opposite of protecting instead it thrusts you into a very vulnerable position where we can so easily be deceived and make bad choices.  And then rather then repenting and turning from it we just continue on in sin getting more and more numb to our convictions.  It is such a sad state that so many people are in.

Its so very important that we spend our life and our time surrounded with other believers and that we are honest with each other.  In a day where just about anything goes we must protect our marriages, our families, our children, our legacy.  We must be coupled with other believers and use sound judgment
1cor 15:33 Don’t be fooled by those who say such things, for “bad company corrupts good character.”

In an anything goes kind or world stick to people with like morals, with high integrity, and with deep convictions.  I know that I will!

But as for me and my house we WILL serve the Lord!




Monday, June 11, 2012

Life these days

I just wanted to take a moment and share how life has been around the Talley household.

Being a mom of three keeps me very busy.  Some days are a breeze and others are more challenging.  But all in all in my eyes I have the most beautiful family.  This year has seen many ups and downs for me.  Mostly ups though.  I have grown so much this year and can see daily how the Lord has restored back my joy.  Even in walking out the first year without my mom  The Lord had so much grace on me and I have so much peace in my life. 

Dylan is the most sincere thoughtful and well mannered boy.  For 4 years old he blows me away at his thought process.  He is such a joy to be with.  I get asked very frequently if I am going to put him into pre-school this year.  At this point I have no plans to do so.  While he is very able and ready for school I just am not.  These years of having him home are so fleeting, and I cherish that his influence at this point is Derek and I.  We can model a Godly life to him and show him values and morals that will be fruitful and last a lifetime.  He is so gentle and kind hearted and I desperately want to protect and preserve that as long as I can. 


Brayden my little ambitious one! Even at 3 he is so much like his daddy haha.  He is such a funny kid.  Very strong willed and and assertive.  He is a natural born leader, very independent and tenacious.  He's a boy who knows what he wants.  We have to get creative at redirecting his energy at times.  He is the boy that wants to always be with his brother.  They are best friends yet he pesters the heck of him and he thinks its funny.  But he is also such a softy  and has such a kind and loving heart.

Kylie Julianne My little gift she brings me so much joy.  She is beautiful and perfect in every way.  By FAR my easiest baby.  When I was pregnant with her I received several prophetic words about the Lord giving her to us to bring healing in my life.  And I can tell you that even at barely 4 months old I have seen this come to pass so strongly.  The Lord really fulfilled so much in my life by giving her to us.  There isn't a single desire for her or in her that I have wanted that the Lord hasn't met.  The Lord really did a beautiful thing for me through her.

Derek is the most wonderful man I have ever known.  He is such a Godly husband, father, leader.  There is not a prideful bone in him. His love and friendship are genuine and he is so submitted to the Lord.  He has been so gentle with me during my weak moments this last year.  He really helps me to be a better person and to see through the eyes of the Lord.  He started a new job this year that has allowed us so much time with him.  And I can not imagine going back to the way it used to be.  He is my best friend and life partner I cherish every minute together.

We miss our friends and family in both MT and WA  and hope to have  chance to see everyone real soon

Thursday, June 7, 2012

We overcome by the word of our testimoy

  I'm not one to look back normally but sometimes a healthy reminder of the Lords goodness is just what we need.

 I was raised in Church and though I got into some mischief in high school I always loved the Lord and never strayed to far from him.  So when People would ask me what my testimony was I always felt a little stumped.  Because I never had a WOW I just got saved moment.  Rather I just always knew the Lord, and a simple decision when I was 17 lead to a real beautiful relationship with the Lord.

Lately I have been thinking about what really is my testimony and the Lord has shown me so many testimony's in my life.  I am only 28 years old and I can give you testimony after testimony of the goodness of God in my life.  If you want a testimony about being barren unable to conceive I have one, If you want a testimony about grieving your mom who was to young to die I have one, if you want a testimony of God endlessly providing finances I have one, if you want a testimony of a girl who was betrayed at a very young age by a man that should have been trusted I have one.  If you want a testimony of a marriage on the brink of falling apart but was restored completely I have one, If you want a testimony of walking away from your family and everyone you have ever known to follow a call from the Lord I have one. 

Sometimes its good to take a healthy stroll down memory lane and to remember what the Lord has done.
Its interesting to watch how circumstances in your life become testimonies in your life.

Rev12:11 They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.

I think about so much that I have been through and how the Lord has rescued me time and time again to show his faithfulness is true.   I challenge everyone to recognize the testimony's in their life and to put to practice Rev 12:11 lets start talking about Gods goodness and love.

And lets overcome by the word of our testimony!

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Sunday, July 17, 2011

for me to live is Christ and to die is gain Philip 1:21

Its been quite a while since I have blogged not that I was ever an "avid" blogger but I feel like there is a blog that has been waiting to go out.  I am sure many of you have been waiting for this only because you care.  This is so painful for me but I feel like I must get it out maybe its part of grieving but who knows.

  My life took a turn that was completely unexpected this winter when my Mom unexpectedly past away in early March.  Just 6 days before, I was in Seattle visiting with not one thought in my mind that it would be my last visit with my mom.   My  mom was not old and not a sickly person she was a healthy young 50 year old  woman. 
I'll never forget the day that she passed away nothing can ever prepare you for losing someone you love so much.  The last time I saw my mom it was 4 am March 4th and she was hugging us goodbye as we got into the car with my dad to head to the airport.  My mom was crying like she always did whenever she left us here in RI or when we would leave Seattle to come back to RI, but I said "Don't cry Mom, I'll see you in two months it will go fast."  (She was supposed to come to RI in May for Braydens 2nd birthday Moms annual extended summer trip)  but thats how it was I never had to miss her TOO much because our next visits were always just around the corner.  Sad goodbyes ALWAYS made me so uncomfortable so I did my best at the end of every visit to make the goodbyes short and sweet.  I'll never ever take goodbye for granted again.  I had no idea what would come in the following days.  My sister had a baby 2 weeks early on that Monday March 7th my mom was right by her side as she brought Baby Aliyah into this world.  That night after Aliyah was born my mom started running a really high fever and felt horribly sick, so my Dad took her the the dr the very next morning.  I remember my mom calling me that Tues crying saying how sick she felt and asking me to please pray for her.  I knew she must have been pretty sick because my mom does not cry about being sick and does not go the dr unless its serious.  At the Dr's office they thought maybe she had caught a virus because she had just recovered from strep throat but the tests came back negative that it was not still in her body and she did not have the flu.  They told her that she was very dehydrated from running such a high fever and gave her the option to get an IV or just go home and drink alot of fluids and true to my mom's form she chose to go home and drink lots of water.  The next day her fever broke but she still wasn't feeling good, and by that night she had cold shivers and was just feeling miserable by very early Thursday Morning my Dad and my Mom both realized that she was in pretty bad condition and so he took into the ER. 
I got a text on thursday morning from my brother saying that mom was in the hospital and that he was on his way there but wasn't sure what was going on exactly.  Because I am the only sibling of many who does not live in the greater Seattle area it was difficult for me to not know just how serious my mom's condition was.  I spent the entire day getting updates  via text from my oldest sister.  My husband and I, our family, and our church were praying fervently for my mom as the reports came in and it became more clear just how seriously sick she was  By the end of that night the hard truth would stare at us straight in the face.  In the end my mom had a very very serious pneumonia that turned septic and took her life.  I know what you may be thinking the dr's should have caught it on tuesday when she went in.  But unfortunately because my mom was so dehydrated when they did check for pneumonia they could not find it.  But because it was so bad even had they found it on tues they still would not have been able to save her life.

Now that that is over with lets get down to the nitty gritty My mom loved and served the Lord.  She raised all of us to kids to live a life surrenderd to him.  So often I am asked how I am doing and how everything is going.  Well here it is, Losing your mom at no matter what age will always happen to soon.  But when you are raised with Christ being the center of your life you view things with a different perspective a God perspective.  In what was the most tragic and difficult thing I have ever walked through in my life I have never felt the presence of our Lord more near.  Everybody knows the footsteps in the sand poem and it stands true.  I look back at the past 4 months and how God has so graciously carried me through and taken care of me in so many ways and I can't help but to be greatful to him.  Yes I have hard days most of my days at this point are good but I still have harder then other days.  And we have the most beautiful friends who continue to lift us in prayer and as we walk this out and we can feel it to our very souls when we are being prayed for.  My Pastor always says that when you are put under pressure whats inside of you will come out.  If you are living a dark life then when tragedy strikes your darkness and true depths of yourself explode for the world to see.  If you are living an upright life surrendered to the Lord then he is what will come out when tragedy happens.   As I look back to the hours and days after my mom  passed away all I can see is Christ in me.  I can not think about this situation without seeing how beautifully the Lord took care of us through it all even down to things like being there just days before or having the finances to be able to over night book a flight for our entire family to Seattle.  There are so many more ways  I could spend all day talking about how good and faithful the Lord has been to us through this season.  And how it is only because of him that we are able to still trust and love him in our lives.
It was interesting to watch my family walk through this and to see what came out of each person as they were pressed.  Most was of what we saw was beautiful a true testimony to the Lord being in our lives, in other family members it was heartbreaking to watch them walk out what really was in them.  Their souls not  being fed on the Lord put them in very sad places.
The Bible says in Joshua 24:15 choose this day whom you will serve;
I live by that everyday I choose to lay down my selfish desires and I choose the Lord in my Life.

Derek and I live only to serve and please the Lord, even when it means packing up and leaving our life in Seattle, even when it means laying down  friendships, even when it means offending family members because they don't believe like we do.  We still without question are submitted only to God. 
And because of our faithfulness to him he has given us so much more then we could ever even dream to ask for.  Our lives are filled with peace on a daily basis,  the people who we have surrounded ourselves with  also love and serve the Lord they encourage us and pray for us and push toward the kingdom. 

Its not always a walk in the park to grieve but the Lord always brings gifts along the way and shines his face down on us to let us know how much he really loves us.  Recently we found out I am pregnant and will be due on my birthday Feb 13th  This little baby is such a gift to us and the fact that the due date is my birthday it is undeniable that it is only God who loves and Cherish's us so much to bring me such a gift of life while mourning a lost life on earth.
My Mom is thriving in heaven and I will one day see her face to face when I get to go meet Jesus.   She will be there to welcome me on my first day of heaven.

I have to say a huge huge huge thanks to my amazing husband Derek,  he has taken such good care of me during this time and treated me so tenderly when it comes to my mom.  I even broke down crying in the middle of a very upscale classy restaurant when we were on a hot date and he didn't make me feel the least bit bad about it.  Embracing me as I walk out this painful journey and praying for me daily, seeking the Lord and leading our family in such a Godly manner.  Who am to deserve such a wonderful man in my life.  Its only because of the Lord.

So while people say to me frequently that I seem to be doing really good just know that it is because I have God in my life.  
Jeremiah 31:13 (NLT)  The young women will dance for joy, and 
the men--old and young--will join in the celebration. I will turn 
their mourning into joy. I will comfort them and exchange their sorrow 
for rejoicing.
I walk this scripture out daily, and I never look at my life as "sacrafice" for the 
Lord its a privilege to serve such a wonderful God

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I'm no better then you

Isn't it just like our natural carnel mind to think that we are so much better then others?  Its a sad lying trap that we too often get engaged and wrapped up in.

Phili 2:2-4  2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. 3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. 

  I praise God that the one of the biggest things I have learned in the last several years is that I am better then nobody.  The more I love God the more I love his people and the more I realize that I am not above anyone.  I'm so convicted by scripture when it says to view others above yourself.  It says it again in Romans 12:3 I realize how many times in my life have I scene myself better, more righteous, haveing a more important thing to say then others.

Thats not the heart of God at all.  You will never find me in a debate.  I truely believe that only God can change a man's heart and mind it will never be because of my over powering words or my great knowlege of any one topic that a person will decide to have the same beliefs as me.  When walking away from a disagreement I never have grattitude that "oh ya I way out smarted them and now they know that I AM RIGHT"  what a dissatisfieing feeling.  But the most beautiful thing in the world is when God convicts and changes a persons heart.  God doesn't need me to argue and debate his word.  His word is living strong and powerful

Heb 4:12,13 12 For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13 Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

God doesn't need my fancy words to change a person.  Unless I am lead by the Holy Spirit you just won't find me beating a dissagreemtent into the ground.

I just love so much how God's word is ALIVE and ACTIVE and how it moves daily in our lives to help us to understand him more.


With all that being said WOOOHOOOO we just our first snow of the season. 
The boys LOVED IT




Dylan was VERY serious about shoveling it away... he knows what needs to be done




Brayden also takes shoveling seriously



Dylan got into the oreo pie without permission... tisk tisk
 Lastely we got rid of the boys pacifiers this week.  It was not nearly as painful as I thought it would be but here is a look at Dylan trying to find one


apparently he had many hiding spots for them LOL
I love my kids!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Happy Halloween AkA happy hallows day AKA All Saints Day ;-D

Happy Saints day or as some would call it happy Halloween.  There is a lot of history behind Halloween.  Its not actually the holiday that people think it is (Satan's Birthday) The origination of Halloween was all Hallows Day which is a catholic celebration of all the Saints that have passed away.  As time has evolved much like most holidays it has been a modernized holiday.  In the past Christians would go from door to door begging for "soul cake" square peices of bread with currants on it.  and the more bread they recieved the more prayers they would offer for the saints who had passed away. 
Kinda cool huh Derek and I learned this a few years back.   We always had the traditional/religious mindset of halloween being a "pagan holiday" until we found out what the true original meaning of Halloween was. 

Here is a website that I recommend to anyone who would want to know a little about the different meanings of halloween  http://www.halloweenishere.com/history.html

so we let our kids dress up and go out seeking "treats please"  LOL it  is so adorable and the boys love it! 

Brayden dressed up as Rex





Poor Rex couldn't see a thing




Rex and Buzz Lightyear





Dylan just could not stop laughing at how Silly it looked




Rex catchen a ride





I love my kids we had lots of fun and got lots candy YUM